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Thursday, March 21, 2024

Tommy

 Markwildyr.com, Post #261

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 Hope you had a great St. Patrick’s Day and didn’t get pinched too often for failing to wear green.

 This week we have an original story not a rerun or a guest post. I hope you enjoy the story of a youth struggling to make the conversion from Tommy to Tom.

 


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TOMMY

By Mark Wildyr

 

“Tommy?”

I bristled at the name, but that was just my mother’s way. I was Tommy here at home but Tom at school. Except for Marge Whitsock—and I didn’t mind the familiar from her, just like she didn’t object to being Margie to me.

“Yes, Mom.”

“Will you run to the store. I’ve got so much to do today, it would be a big help.”

“Sure.” Any excuse to drive my ’85 Mustang. I’ve had it for a whole semester now, but still got a kick out of buckling into the seat and feeling the power of the beast. “What’cha need?”

It turned out to be quite a list, but what the heck. The only thing was, I was a little ambivalent about entering Hawthorne’s Grocery. Mr. Hawthorne was okay, but his son was something else. Neil was in my senior class at Putnam High, and I had a funny relationship with him. Relationship? That was a stretch. I wasn’t even a blip on Neil’s radar. He was the only other kid who still called me Tommy, and that was because it kept me an inferior to our town’ football running back hero.

At first, I thought I’d lucked out, and he wasn’t working this Saturday. But as I left the store, Neil pulled up in his Camaro and walked over to where I was loading groceries into my trunk.

“Take the cart back in for you, Tommy,” he offered.

“Thanks.”

“How you doing? Ready for graduation?”

Wow. He was staying for conversation. “As much as I can be.”

He grinned, going from just good looking to downright handsome. “Yeah, I get you. Be great getting out of high school, but that means ripping the old gang to shreds. I hear you’re going to State too. See you there, I guess”

I hesitated. Might as well get this over and done with. “Uh… you think you could call me Tom when we get there?”

The grin died. “You don’t get it, do you?”

“Get what?”

“That’s a term of affection.”

He grabbed my now-empty cart and headed for the store. I watched him until he disappeared through the automatic double doors… with my mouth hanging open, I’m sure.

****

Football season ended, spring arrived, and everyone concentrated on proms and getting ready for tests and graduation. Finals were a busy time for me, not just preparing for the exams but also doing some tutoring. I often wondered if I shouldn’t become a teacher because I liked helping other students prepare for the biggest academic event of their year.

This semester, I got a surprise when our science teacher Mrs. Levy asked me to give Neil Hawthorne a hand. Neil had never needed help before. I’d had a couple of classes with him this semester and knew him to be a bright guy. Yeah, he had it all. Looks, athletic prowess, and brains.

Nonetheless, I swallowed my surprise and agreed to give him a hand. That very afternoon, he approached me as I left the school building and headed for my Mustang.

“Hey, Tommy, wait up!”

I obediently halted until he reached my side, and then we walked to the parking lot.

“Mrs. Levy told me you’d agreed to help. Appreciate it. When can we get together?"

“On one condition,” I said as a brainstorm struck. “You call me Tom from now on.”

He gave me a look. “Yeah, sure. Agreed. Okay?”

“Okay. When do you want to start.”

“My folks are going to my aunt and uncle’s house for dinner this evening. How about we grab burgers and meet for a session.”

“Sure.” My turn to flash him a look. “Didn’t know you had trouble in science. In any class, as a matter of fact.”

“Not exactly trouble. Just like to have a firmer footing, I guess you could say.”

We settled on a time, got into our respective vehicles, and went our separate ways.

****

I showed up at his house right on the dot. Per agreement, he’d stopped on the way home from work and got our burgers and fries. As we sat down and popped lids on our drinks—he was diet Coke; I was regular Dr. Pepper—he leaned back and spread his legs comfortably. We ate in silence for a minute or two before he hit me with a question.

“How come you don’t like to be called Tommy?”

“It’s a little boy’s name,” I came back at him.

“Or a term of… familiarity, I guess you could say.”

“Maybe. But it seems to me like it’s saying you’re the grown-up and I’m the little kid.”

He took another bite and munched with a thoughtful look on his face before taking it a step further.

“It’s kinda like Pepe being Pepito.”

“Yeah. Like Pepe being little Pepe,” I countered.

He got that cogitating look again. “Familiarity.”

I shook my head. “Dissing.”

“So I’m calling you ‘Little Tom,’ huh?”

“Yeah.”

“Are you?” he asked, putting his greasy napkin on the plate and downing the last of his fries.

“Am I what?”

“Little Tom?”

“Hell, Neil, you got eyes. I’m about as tall as you are.”

“Not talking about how tall you are.”

“Then what—” I interrupted myself with a choking sound. “You mean….”

“Exactly.”

My face heated up, and my cheeks stung. “You suggesting we measure?”

“Why not, Tom. Or maybe Tommy’s more appropriate.”

I didn’t know what to say, much less what to do. I wasn’t into sports, so I didn’t spend time in the locker room like lots of jocks, but word around school was Neil had about the biggest one on campus. I couldn’t help it; my eyes went south.

Neil was sprawled in his seat, one foot beneath the chair, the other stretched out in front of him. A noticeable lump emphasized the fullness of his groin. I’m sure my face got redder as I realized I was curious about… it.

He moved, taking me by surprise. His hands dealt with his belt buckle in one second flat. Then he hesitated with his fingers on the top button of his fly. “Well? You chicken?”

“I… I….”

He redid his belt. “Figured. So I guess you’ll stay Tommy.”

“Wait!” I cried. The desperation in my voice surprised me. “Hell, if it’ll put that crap to rest, why not.” I tackled my own belt.”

“Let’s go to my room, you know, in case my folks come home unexpectedly.”

“What?” Now there was panic in my tone. I hadn’t realized my voice was so expressive.

“Just a precaution. They never come back before nine or ten. They play bridge with my aunt and uncle.”

He rose and strode to his room, me following like a puppy dog. As soon as the door closed behind us, his belt was undone and his fly popped. Then he hesitated, waiting for me, I guess.

So I tackled my trousers, feeling foolish when they fell around my ankles. His did too.

“Now the underwear,” he said, rolling down his jockeys.

I flid down my boxers, and they joined my trousers on the floor. I stood with my mouth open as he stepped out of his clothes. Gossip was accurate. Neil was well-endowed.

“Tom,” he said, “Congratulations. You’re carrying more’n I thought.”

“Uh… thanks.” Not knowing what else to do, I grabbed for my britches.

“Wait. I want a better look. It seems to be growing.”

If possible, my cheeks turned rosier… all four of them. It was true, my thing started rising like it was hunting for something. I got even more flustered when his did too. And it was swelling up a whole lot faster than mine. It finally dawned on me we were standing bare-assed staring at one another’s bone.

“Impressive,” he noted. “Wanna touch.”

“I-I guess.” Had my gulp been as loud to him as it sounded to me?

My knees almost gave way when his fist closed around me. He twisted sideways, presenting himself, and I grabbed on like clutching for a lifeline. Wow! Hard and warm and throbbing.

He turned me loose to shrug out of his tank top before pulling me down on the bed with him. Wow! What a build. Wow? Was I reduced to a blubbering idiot only capable of wows? No. He was magnificent. Didn’t know they made chests for eighteen-year-old boys that rippled like that. The pecs were hard slabs; aureoles big and brown and… strangely unsettling. Made me want to touch one. So I did.

“Ahhh,” he purred, putting a hand behind my head and pulling me to him. My lips sorta fastened on like I was three months old and started sucking.

“Ahhh,” he said again, adding, “Tom.”

I switched to the other one without being asked.

“Ohhh, that gets to me,” he mumbled. He sounded discombobulated, as well, and that gave me some confidence. I put a hand to his abs and had the thought everything this guy possessed was hard as a rock.

Neil lay back on his pillows and let me root around for a moment before grabbing my head in his hands, centered it where he wanted and pulled me to him. Can’t say I was exactly surprised—given what had gone on before—but I was kinda shocked at what I experienced. Wasn’t disgust or revulsion It was more like a thrill that it was me giving this great-looking guy what he wanted. So I set to work making it as good for him as I could.

He panted hard and moaned and twitched now and then until he finally let out a gasp and called out.

Oh! Tommy… Tommy!

How about that? I’d gone from Tommy to Tom and back to Tommy in the span of a single evening. But you know what? I didn’t mind his “Tommy” this time. Not at all.

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Tuned out to be quite a tutoring session, didn’t it? But seemed to me like the wrong guy did the tutoring. Depends upon the subject matter, I guess. Wonder if they’ll end up as roommates at State?

 My new anthology, Huntinghawk,was released in February as an Ebook by JMS Books with the print version to follow soon. Hope you’ll give it a read.

 My contact information is provided below in case anyone wants to drop me a line:

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 See you later.

 

 Mark

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Thursday, May 6, 2021

Patterns of Moonglow and Shadow (Part 1 of 2 Parts)

Markwildyr.com, Post #154

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This week, let’s get back to storytelling. The following is part one of a yarn I wrote just for this post. Hope you like it.

 

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PATTERNS OF MOONGLOW AND SHADOW

Movement between patches of moonglow and shadow caught my attention as I waited at a traffic light on East Central in Albuquerque. In dark of shadow, a vague, shapeless stirring; in weak moonglow—feebly augmented by fading neons—motion took momentary shape. White sneakers, slim jeans, lanky figure, hair darker than the shadowed recess of closed shops lining the avenue. Good physique, long, coltish stride… but what did he look like? Probably not much. What were the odds you’d spot someone with it all: good build, masculine grace, and fair features? Slim to none.

The light changed before he reached the relatively well-lit intersection, and I moved on toward my downtown office for a late-night planning meeting. After that, maybe a stop at a Fourth Street bar before heading back to my empty apartment.

Without consciously thinking about what I was doing, I circled the block to catch another glimpse of this walking enigma who had so unexpectedly snagged my attention. My timing was off a bit, so I circled yet again and caught him as he trotted across a side street. The sudden appearance of my headlamps caused him to glance my way. Good Lord! I’d hit the perfecto. Build, grace, and good features.

Of course, momentary glimpses can be tricky. Minks can turn out to be weasels on closer inspection. I noted the time on my dashboard clock. Nine-fifteen. Maybe this was a familiar trip for the young man. If so, I might catch sight of him tomorrow.

****

Our downtown meeting had been called for this unusual hour because our boss kept a social engagement before calling on the team to finalize plans for a development on the west side of the city. My mind strayed, and that was dangerous for a junior member of an architectural firm. Nonetheless, my thoughts refused to let go of that long-legged stride, dark hair, and comely features back in the Northeast Heights. Would I see him again? Central wasn’t my usual route from home to office, so Lady Fate must have had a hand in what happened.

The evening ended as predicted. A couple of “hail fellow well met” drinks and then home to a lonely apartment. Actually, my pad wasn’t bad. Two bedrooms in a pricey part of town too far from the office to be really convenient. I’d signed the lease because that’s where my girlfriend Cassandra wanted to live. Cassandra. The name should have forewarned me. Like that old Trojan Priestess of Apollo who told truths that were never believed, my Cassandra had warned me our relationship wouldn’t last. And she was right. Six months into a one-year lease, she moved back to Pennsylvania, leaving me with an inconvenient apartment contract only halfway spent. I closed the door behind me and gave the empty apartment my usual greeting of late. “Shit!”

****

The next evening, I cruised the upper end of East Central from Wyoming down to Carlisle and back without results. Oh, I saw pickups—both male and female—but that wasn’t what I was looking for. That particular enigmatic figure from last night totally claimed my attention. I gave up around nine and returned home.

Unusually antsy at the office the next day, I worked late in order to get some tasks done I’d neglected earlier. Sometime after nightfall, I headed up the long expanse of Central Avenue past the Highlands subdivision, beyond the University of New Mexico main campus to the International Section, and deep into the Northeast Heights. No sign of what I was looking for.

Pissed at myself for getting hung up on something as trivial as a guy with a long athletic stride, I turned north toward home, but found myself circling the block and heading west on Central again. It was almost as if my Miata had a mind of its own. I cursed softly but continued on down the street. Shop lights began winking off, creating those weird patterns of moonglow and shadow along the sidewalks.

At Carlisle, I said screw it and headed home, or at least that’s what I told myself. And since Central was sort of a way home, I pointed the car’s nose east. Lo and behold, in a few minutes, I spotted a long-legged figure turn south on Morningside, and I did something I never do… pulled up beside the guy just as he started to cross the street to a small park. His eyes widened in surprise when he almost walked into the side of my vehicle.

Like I said, there’s always something to mar perfection, and now it was obvious. The guy—kid, really—was dirty. Filthy. He likely lived on the streets, possibly sleeping in the park lying just to the right of my car.

I blurted the first thing I thought of. “You hungry?”

“Y-yeah.”

The next words were hard to get out, but for some reason I was committed. “Get in. I’ll buy you something.”

He squinted doubtfully. “You sure?”

“Yeah, I’m sure,” I said, grabbing a newspaper I had intended to read tonight and spreading it over the front passenger’s seat.”

He used that long, graceful stride to go around the car and climb in. He didn’t seem bothered at the newspaper crinkling beneath his weight.

I goosed the motor and whipped around the corner to make my way back to Central. “Robert,” I said, examining him out of the corner of my eye.

“Huh? Oh, Jimmy.”

“What do you like to eat?”

“I like I-Hop, but they won’t let me in.”

“No, probably not.” I was beginning to regret my rash action. The newspaper might save my seat, but the odor was going to be harder to expunge.

“What would you think if I offered you a shower.”

“I’d think it was great, but it won’t do any good.”

“Why?”

“I’ve got no clothes to change into. Have to put these back on.”

“You don’t have any more clothes?”

“Did. But I went up the street to do some dumpster diving this morning, and when I got back, sombody’d filched my goods. Took everything.”

I glanced at the dash clock. “Walmart’s still open, how about I buy you a shirt and a pair of pants.”

“Same thing. Won’t let me in.”

“Maybe not, but they’ll let me in.”

Two minutes later, I turned south on San Mateo and whipped into a Walmart parking lot. I took out a pen and pad and wrote down his shirt and pant sizes.

“Be back in a few. Hang tight,” I said, rolling down the windows even though the night air was cool. One of the things I liked about Albuquerque. No matter how hot the days, the nights were cool.

Thirty minutes later, I exited the store and only then did I consider the possibility he’d hot wire the ignition and take off in my car. But there it was with him leaned back in the reclining seat. He flinched when I opened the driver’s side door and tossed a canvas bag into his lap. “Here you go three shirts, three pants, three shorts—hope you like jockeys—three pairs of socks, and a shaving kit. Oh, and a windbreaker for cool nights.”

“Wow! That’s more’n I lost this morning. Thanks, man.”

Let’s take you home for that shower, and then we’ll see about something to eat. I’ve got some spareribs and turkey in the freezer. Pre-packaged, but not bad.”

“Sounds good to me.”

* * * *

Okay, so our protagonist has caught his fish, so what is he going to do with it. Frankly, I don’t believe Robert has the slightest idea. He’s acting on instinct. What do you think? We’ll have our answer on Thursday the 20th.

 

I am still asking for reviews of Wastelakapi, on Amazon.

 My contact information is provided below in case anyone wants to drop me a line:

Website and blog: markwildyr.com

Email: markwildyr@aol.com

Facebook: www.facebook.com/mark.wildyr                                                       

Twitter: @markwildyr

 Now my mantra: Keep on reading. Keep on writing. You have something to say, so say it!

 

Mark

 New posts the first and third Thursday of the month at 6:00 a.m., US Mountain time. 

Thursday, January 2, 2020

Huntinghawk (Part 2 of 3 Parts)


markwildyr.com, Post #103
  
The Spring at Dragon's Back - Courtesy of nps.gov
Ready for some more Huntinghawk? We left Hawk and Ramon at Dragon’s Back, sleeping off the effects of their mutually difficult day. Let’s see what happens next.

*****
HUNTINGHAWK

          Hawk was ready to leave with the morning star, but he brewed coffee and let the boy sleep a few more minutes. They’d make better time if the youth was rested, but the Indian wanted to start before the sun warmed things up too much. Ramon woke and apologized for keeping Hawk waiting. As the boy turned away for his morning piss Hawk studied the kid. Ramon was built wide at the shoulders but incredibly thin in the waist and hips, reminding him of the flamenco dancers Hawk had seen in Mexico. They were like willow whips, strong and flexible.
          Hawk’s headache returned when he clamped his Stetson on his head and started out, but the dizziness seemed to have gone. When they left the water behind, no one would have been able to tell that they had been there. The headache was worse by the time they reached Hawk’s old Dodge pickup but had subsided to a steady throb when he pulled into the driveway of his small adobe house. He went home instead of the office because he didn’t know what to do with the boy. Once inside, he phoned headquarters to report what had happened. Amadeo Tomé, the forty-year-old local Indian in charge of the Rezagados, was no fool and could read tracks better than most, so Hawk told the story straight except that he made Ramon a local kid out hunting who stumbled on him by accident. Since he was off duty the next two days, Hawk promised to take it easy and report to the local clinic if he got to feeling worse. Taking it easy was not a difficult promise to keep. He told his guest to make himself at home and fell into bed. Hunger woke him late in the evening. He pulled on an old pair of sweats cut off high on the thigh and went into the living room.
          Ramon had laundered his clothes in Hawk’s old washing machine and sat in the living room wrapped in a towel watching the small television set while his clothes dried. His eyes widened, silently begging forgiveness at his audacity for using Hawk’s possessions.
          “It’s okay, kid,” he assured the boy. “Told you to make yourself at home.” He winced as he took a step.
         Immediately, Ramon got to his feet and insisted Hawk sit down while he found something for them to eat. The youth came up with a meal of tuna fish sandwiches, chips, and Mexican beer. During the meal around the kitchen table Hawk learned the boy was eighteen, came from Durango, Mexico and was trying to join his older brother somewhere in Colorado. Hawk watched the play of muscles in the boy’s slender torso. It was a curious thing to take so much notice.
          “Ramon,” he said, getting to his feet and limping into the living room, “we’ve got to decide what to do about you.” Hawk sat heavily in a chair and pulled up a bare foot to examine the a foot that had been bothering him all day. “Damn!” he cursed, discovering a thorn buried behind the ball of his left foot.
          Ramon was at his side immediately, examining the injured foot closely. The boy took charge, asking for a needle and disinfectant, going for the items while Hawk moved to the sofa. When Hawk was stretched out, Ramon knelt at the end of the divan.
          “Try not hurt Hawk bad,” he said softly. “But splinter deep. Hurt some.”
          “I’ll try to handle it,” Hawk said with an amused smile. He watched silently as the boy sterilized the needle with the flame from a kitchen match. The smile slid from his lips when Ramon started digging. A few moments later, the boy held up a thorn.
          “Got it! Hurt bad?”
          “I’ll live,” Hawk said, closing his eyes as Ramon applied disinfectant to the wound. He let out a soft groan when the boy started massaging the foot. It hurt pretty good, Hawk decided. He must have dozed because when he woke, the boy’s mouth was on the inside of his thigh. Hawk’s eyes flew open, but otherwise he did not move. He looked down his torso as the boy’s hand slid beneath the cutoffs. To Hawk’s surprise, he responded. Ramon inched his way up Hawk’s thigh, leaving a moist trail with his tongue.
          “Ramon!” he yelled. “What the hell are you doing?”
          The boy came up to regard him with wide, frightened eyes. “T-try to thank Hawk,” the boy stammered. “O… okay?” he asked uncertainly. When Hawk made no reply, he lowered his head.
          Hawk could not believe the sensations he experienced for the next few minutes. His indignation and outrage died beneath Ramon’s ministrations. Hawk’s mind denied what was happening; even his body relaxed in enjoyment… until his orgasm hit. For a moment, he thought he’d been struck by liquid lightning.
          “Where’d you learn to do that, kid?” he gasped.
          Ramon gave a broad smile. “Patron. He make Ramon do it for him. Io okay?”
          “Great, but let me get this straight. Your patron made you do it for him.”
          “He teach when Ramon has fourteen years. He do good for mother and brothers and sisters because of what Ramon do for him. But… but he die in accident. So I come here for work.”
          “He taught you this?”
          “Yes. Not so good with him, but like with Hawk. Hawk much man.”
          “Ramon, you don’t have to do anything for me. But what do you get out of it? I mean, I got the climax of my life, but what did you get?”
          “Ramon get most beautiful man, El Guapo.” The boy smiled again. “Is true. I see you without clothes on desert, I know this man different. Mexican? Maybe not. He more rojo, red, you know. Big muscles. Wide shoulders. Much man.”
          “So you like to do it?”
          “Is okay with patron. Not at first, but finally Ramon don’t care so much. But with Hawk? I like. Ramon do it again?”
          “No,” Hawk said sharply. “Maybe later.”
          Ramon gave his dazzling smile. “Good.”
          Hawk mentally shook his head, amazed at the fondness he felt for the boy at that moment. He had never experienced any sort of attraction for another male, except for the proper love for his father and older brother. Once he had severely beaten a fellow logger when the man groped him when they took a leak together in the woods. Now he wondered if he had acted out of fear.

*****

Looks like they’re compatible. Glad to see the kid took some kinks out of Hawk’s rope. But wait… there’s more next time.

Now my hopes for Cut Hand and Johnny Two-Guns. I also believe the STARbooks-published River Otter, Echoes of the Flute, and Medicine Hair are still up. I sure would like to get the final book in the Cut Hand Series, Wastelakapi… Beloved, published, but it’ll take some help from readers to get Dreamspinner interested.

My contact information is provided below in case anyone wants to drop me a line:
Website and blog: markwildyr.com
Email: markwildyr@aol.com
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Twitter: @markwildyr

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And now my mantra: Keep on reading. Keep on writing. You have something to say, so say it!

Until next time.

Mark

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